Glitter and Doom

Willy Wonka: Don't forget what happened to the man who suddenly got everything he always wanted.
Charlie Bucket: What happened?
Willy Wonka: He lived happily ever after.

At a major electronics\dept store late night to pick up a few things - went to the cd and gaming section and was fussing around with a controller hanging off some video game they had on display. ( I don't own a system and havent since Atari 2600) I thought the place was dead empty but a girl came over and started asking me about my ink and then if I have played such and such game. No. I said this thing just sorta caught my eye when i walked by and I couldnt kick my hands of it. I admitted that I didn't even have a system and don't really like playing video games. She looked at me strangely and told me she was a nerd or geek or something. gaming was fun and i should get into it. then we got into a discussion about the word "nerd" and "geek". words and meanings being far more interesting to me. I told her how I saw it was that "geek" implies hireabilty, it implies wealth, and that "nerd" skills aren't 100 percent sellable. She told me i was seemed very smart , a "very wise man" - making me feel more like her dad, which I think was not far off from being possible.

I speak and act in a totally unrestricted manner to animals. I tell them that I love them and touch and pet and hold. They make me feel all warm and cuddly. sometimes I wish I could be the same way with humans. It probably has something to do with fear of rejection. control. whatever. but i don't know. those cute little furry faces. How can anyone resist?

I couldn't keep my hands off you, you made me feel warm. I even told her that I loved her. silly me. silly silly me.

bottom photo: circle--of--fire

Impossible, Because you are not nice.

"Most men would rather have you hear their story than grant their wish."

Where was I on that sinking ship?
Astern? Starboard? Oh fuck.
Now I'm talking like a sailor.

I read the other day that she recognized the true meaning of the Trojan horse but no one believed her when she said the horse contained soldiers of the enemy.
Forget it.

It's like when I hear the word "gaming" my brain goes to the same place it goes when people say "country and western music"
I mean I do know what Castlevania is, and that sort of scares me


When was the last time you had butterflies in your stomach? I had to ask myself is this going to be the last age inappropriate relationship you ever have? I had to tell myself, sure I would. If she promised to wear the socks, I would bring the Zima. Don't laugh, It is a bold, tasty treat with a spark of freshness. Face it, you love me. You always will.